May 17, 2013 in Heart-songs
Sometimes I get so restless and depressed waiting around for the next thing.
I’m willing to bet that you know what I mean…
It could be the next Bible study, or vacation, or baby, or move.
But inevitably, there always comes a lull.
And in that lull, I begin to feel anxious, and despondent, and alone– like a child separated from her mother.
And I feel myself waiting, hopelessly on, for something life-giving to come along.
Now, there’s a sense in which this is sinful of me.
In short, I feel empty, and I’m looking for things to fill me up.
And I walk around with this hollow nagging deep down in my gut, and I feel as if something is wrong with me.
But in another very real sense, there is. There’s something wrong with all of us.
And I’m not supposed to feel comfortable.
Listening to Mumford and Sons with my girl the other day, after a particularly long stretch of restless days, I mindlessly sang their familiar chorus while I washed dish after dish from the sink.
And a few minutes later, the words echoed again in my head.
I will wait.
I will wait for you.
Lord, yes. I will.
And I let out a relieved sigh at the realization that I am waiting.
The reason that those restless feelings won’t go away is because they aren’t supposed to.
This is not my home.
We sit on this earth like poor, starving, orphaned children…waiting to be adopted by a King.
And that emptiness that persists can only be filled by Him.
But also I forget that He has not left me waiting empty handed.
He has given me Words of life to hold on to. He has given me reason to wait– reason to persevere.
We fill that emptiness with the knowledge of the One who came to save us and the mighty battle that has been won over sin and death.
And we wait for a time when there will be no emptiness.
Like a river running through the desert, is the promise of our Savior.
It gives us life, and a taste of the satisfying hope that awaits us.
We rejoice that it runs into an deep ocean, so full and unending that we will never, ever see it’s end.
A new world– a place of contentment and joy. A place with no sin, no sickness, and no pain. A place where we can fellowship with our heart’s delight– with Christ, our Savior.
That is what we’re waiting for.
“Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.” Psalm 43:5
I will wait.
I will wait for you, Lord.